Friday, October 10, 2008 1:35 PM
problems come and haunt me from day to day. after i have done with one problem, another one seems to come along. each time i try to make everything work well, there is always a problem coming up after. when will it ends when i think. each problem i try to solve myself, i do ask for advices from friends, but the decision i need to do it myself. which i really hate. cause in the end, i always get the blame.
my dad told me as i grew older there are more responsibilites that i need to face. now my responsibilities are school and it seems that i keep ignoring it due to other factors in my life. love and friends and my ministry. sometimes, i dun even know what are important to me. i refused to listen to my dad n take the job, but then i end up having to suffer the problems along the way. maybe i should have told him in the beginning that he was write. i was foolish enough not to listen to him.
God, if only i can find away to end the problems. i think have enough obstacles coming down my way and i dun think i need more in my hand to handle. i'm frustrated, i'm stressed and somehow i really hate to let people know htat's how i feel cause i hate people taking pity on me. i dun remember how to smile genuinely, i think it was in the past. where all the good things usually happend.
each day, i tell myself to be strong. i encourage people to be happy and be strong. but i lie to myself that i am happy or i am strong. im weak and i can easily hurt. each word that talk to me can be taken so seriously that i put them in a negative way. i dunno if ever wanna go one.because it simply hard to do.
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