Sunday, June 29, 2008 6:52 AM
imagine a ripe tomato...that's how my face looks this afternoon. it was my youngest first b-dae, and my 3rd job as a freelance photographer. it was tiring. i mean, it's difficult to walk around, and since it was too crowded along with the heat that surrounded us, i think i was almost fainted. oh well, wad to do. luckily, i survived.
Oma LAn stays in hotel tongiht, tomorrow she's leaving back to Pekalongan. Hikz. i hvnt had the chance to spend a talk time with her. cuz of my intern.
about the thing that i found out last friday, i think i'm almost over it. i come up with other solution. to me, it's not my fault cuz my parents told me i had done what i can, i guess it's just their loss.
sebie was so cute today, i mean he was dancing so funnily behind the clowns and of course took the cutest pictures. lol~~
maybe i'll sleep early tonight..a bit exhausted from what happend today. plus, muff is in very bad temper right now, better dun disturb her.
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Friday, June 27, 2008 1:26 PM
there's a saying, when one door closes, another door will open. well, i really hope it did. i know i may fail right now, i was upset, but this cannot stop from searching my future. it may even open up an opportunity for me. maybe it wasnt meant for me. oh well~~ i hope im right.
today, i was late at work and went to EX to watch with my colleagues. it was fun, girls night out, watching sex n the city. sadly, the movie has been cut so many time. haiz..indo~~
went home and well, i was upset n tired, but it's ok. as my friend told me. yesterday is history, tomorrow is mystery, and today is a gift, that's why it's called present.
oh ya, it's my dad's 49th bday today. i know he's old. hahahha well, 30 years diff with me. woooOOw
tomorrow's plan: very long long sleep till 7.30 maybe. then~~off to bintaro. eye doctor and then lunch to celebrate dad's b-dae!!! yay~~
goal for today: dun ever regret wad has happend, just be thankful for whatever u are given.
currently listening: Jovy-Message of love
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Wednesday, June 25, 2008 9:43 AM
3rd day of intern: i was sleepy. cuz i didnt hv enough sleep. chatting too much with muffin.well~ then my work today was supposed to read the annual report. which are alot. 2005-2007 which as approx about 170 pages each. haiz. i need to make summary on them.
well, not much happend today. office was so quiet. and i got a little mad again with dad. cuz he was saying embarassing things in front of other ppl. unnecesssary things that made me mad and embarassaed. i really hate when he do that.
sorry cupcakes~~not much to say today...i'll read ur poem tomorrow morning~
i'm kinda sleepy now
continue tomorrow-----
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Tuesday, June 24, 2008 10:15 AM
one thing to say: I HATE INDO!
dunno why, but i really mean it when i say this phrase. ok. first thing. why the hell this college students go and destroy everything? u want to demo. fine~but no need to destroy everything. dun u hv any brain? i mean u are in uni man. haiz~~to me, it's just stupid. i mean. we know that we are in trouble with financial things. and you are demoing due to the rise of gas prices and food prices. and now you destroy the sides of the highway, you just waste more money that the gov need to pay. well, not the gov, US, the indo citizen. to me, it's just stupid. when can they realize?!?
2nd topic of the day: i was in a really bad mood this morning, cuz my dad keep firing my temper, which made me HATE the world of finance. yet at work, when i do my stuff, i kinda enjoy it, even if it's tiring. well, today i deal with numbers. tired but still learn quite alot,whic makes me happy.
funny thing is that i went to early today. i was too angry with my dad that i dun keep my eye on the time. so when i arrive, i realize it was 7.09AM..ok i was way too early. i know the office just open 8.30AM officially, but as an analyst, i must came early. which is 7.15AM. luckily, the 2 analysts came and open the door. phew~~
cupcake has a cute funny dream. dun worry. i had mines last time too remember. it's kinda funny though...well, if u dun think about it too much...you'll soon forget about it.
now, my collection of gadgets are increasing.i'll take their picts laters...
currently listening: Adios-Eun Ji Won
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Monday, June 23, 2008 7:45 AM
first day at intern, two words to describe: extremely tiring!!!
i guess, i better go to study rather than work. i mean. it's totally diff things. all i did was stared at the freaking comp screen for like 10 hours reading the same stuff, trying to compile everything inside my brain. different from what i should to do~~
it's just the first day~~ i still hv 6 weeks to go~~ diee~~~~~~
lucky my sis. she got to stay home and wake up late. argh!!! die die die!!!
well, since i promice cupcake that i will write often. i'll update what i had done in the past few days.
wed 1:05PM arrive at soekarno-hatta airport.
1:35PM still arriving for my freaking baggage
1:45PM stupid officers check my bag and that's it. not helping me carry the baggage back
since i hvm't been sleeping well for two days, there's still some brain dead in me
arrive at apt, i took a shower, unpack, hv pizza hut for dinner then before actually 6PM, i was dead exhausted.
thurs: i woke up early. then prepare breakfast for fam. then i went to TA. had my manicure and pedicure at Johnny Andrean. DAMN SUX! they ruin my pretty nails....
eat at gajah mada twice that day
went to debenhams midnight sale...pretty terrible n tiring
fri:went to kota to eat bakmi, buy dvd, then went home. sebbie came!!!but i hv to leave~~
sat: wait for sis to practice for concert~~eat sate n got sick
sun: sick for the whole day~~
hvnt prepare for tomorrow work~~but sleepy already T_T
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Monday, June 9, 2008 7:18 PM
since i was a bit bored today...i kinda play around with my makeup. before packing them up to indo.
here's the look:
it looks kinda messy, i know. hahaha...i wasn't able to do the mascara properly. my poor short lashes won't curl properly, so u can really see it.
oh well, it's 9 days before indo. kinda excited ho! hahahahaa...
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Sunday, June 1, 2008 2:10 AM
yesterday, my life was a circus, now my life is a riot.
well, i guess, i had too much expectation in my life. yet, nothing really worth you think. i had my own way of thinking, and some ppl, i guess dun really get it. i try to blend in, and i felt, it wasn't really me. i hate ppl telling me what to do. when i blend in, i slowly find myself disappearing in the crowd, i bet when im gone, no one will notice. ok, for as long as i have lived, i have been invisible most of my life. i have lost my own self in this world of circus and riots. i can't no longer show anyone who i really am, because you know why, people don't care and people don't notice. and plus, since no one care about this blog, i can simply post whatever i want.
i wish i could cry, but i can't. i felt stupid when i cry. i got bruises from yesterday, and no one care. fine...my body is aching, no one care either. i dunno. maybe i need someone to listen, someone to care and someone to notice. yet, i simply am not good enough for people to do that for me. i feel like a fool.
memories brings back happy moments
it looks kinda messy, i know. hahaha...i wasn't able to do the mascara properly. my poor short lashes won't curl properly, so u can really see it.
