Sunday, April 27, 2008 11:37 PM
gonna make this one pretty short i think.I think i have to learn to control my feelings towards others. not getting angry so easily. i know im such a moody person that alwayz keep quiet whenever im moody. well, sometimes there are just time that i have no mood to talk. it's simply me, got nothing to talk about. maybe if you do a silent test with me, i can do it for quite a while i guess. cuz, basically at home, i got no one to talk to. i just chat online, which dun count as chatting.ok, as for my temper, i must be able to control them. being able to confront the ppl about the things that i dun wanna do, instead of keeping quiet and complaining then back to my parents. poor mom n dad, always get me complains. sometimes i feel being used by others and all, i dunno. it's just my thinking. sometimes, i dun like being asked to, unless i feel like it. questions to myself: DO I HAVE TO DO WHAT OTHERS TOLD ME TO DO? well, sometimes if i declined i feel bad, so that's why i do them even though i dun want to. i just need to be able to confront this more. less complaining. What inside me is different from how i look and act outside. there's a whole contrast between me outside and the real me inside. i guess, i must have acted so well, but i dunno. the real me dun wanna come out unless there's the right time. just bare with me, i need time. and obviously, im not so open person, especially about my personal feelings. well, usually only my parents n my beloved cupcakes know them. we need time to learn, aren't we, say??? oh, well, i say that i will keep things short, ok, i talk too much i guess. hahaha...current listening: hawaiian couple - Humming Urban Stereo
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