Her name is misscherie
Currently studying in university of Wisconsin-madison
01191989 is her day;
photography is her obsession.
She is currently single

♥ Mama!
♥ Papa!
♥Her mushroom!
♥Her camera!
♥Her bed!
♥Her com!
:DD

D:Bitch!
D:Exams!
D:Study!
D:Liars!
D:Fakers!



REVIEW REVIEW REVIEW
FINALS
Driving PERMIT
tidy my makeup box
CLEAN HOUSE!!!
makeup DIET



:DEverlasting Love!
:DCamera Lens!
:DNissan rouge!
:Dlost at least 5 kg!
:DPolaroid camera!
:DMeet Cupcakes!
:Dlomographic camera!
:Dgraduation!
:Da BF!
:Da toned body!
:DA make a short movie!
:DPhotoshoot!
:DGet my Driving License
:DGet My beauty sleep




muffin + cupcake + Dadz+ Deeyan + Stephanie + teph + dhi + monika + risang + veronica + cupcake's story + f'La + My Guilty Pleasure+ tablo+ DJ tukutz + mithra+ mraz+


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gonna make this one pretty short i think.

I think i have to learn to control my feelings towards others. not getting angry so easily. i know im such a moody person that alwayz keep quiet whenever im moody. well, sometimes there are just time that i have no mood to talk. it's simply me, got nothing to talk about. maybe if you do a silent test with me, i can do it for quite a while i guess. cuz, basically at home, i got no one to talk to. i just chat online, which dun count as chatting.

ok, as for my temper, i must be able to control them. being able to confront the ppl about the things that i dun wanna do, instead of keeping quiet and complaining then back to my parents. poor mom n dad, always get me complains. sometimes i feel being used by others and all, i dunno. it's just my thinking. sometimes, i dun like being asked to, unless i feel like it. questions to myself: DO I HAVE TO DO WHAT OTHERS TOLD ME TO DO? well, sometimes if i declined i feel bad, so that's why i do them even though i dun want to. i just need to be able to confront this more. less complaining.

What inside me is different from how i look and act outside. there's a whole contrast between me outside and the real me inside. i guess, i must have acted so well, but i dunno. the real me dun wanna come out unless there's the right time. just bare with me, i need time. and obviously, im not so open person, especially about my personal feelings. well, usually only my parents n my beloved cupcakes know them. we need time to learn, aren't we, say???

oh, well, i say that i will keep things short, ok, i talk too much i guess. hahaha...

current listening: hawaiian couple - Humming Urban Stereo

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oh well, many things happend today. i guess, i went to class, then eat lunch plus do a bit of shopping lol. ok...then i met someone whom is "itchy backside" lol. this singaporean term that i just learn from the girls out loud series. very funny one. lol

i went swimming too. well, got back and then hv dinner with my friends. i had these fondue. DAMN EXPENSIVE.LOL. but it was a delish dinner. hahaha. oh i wish my cupcake is here. maybe i'll take her there. hehehe..

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is it easy to smile? i seemed to forget how to smile properly. each time i saw myself in the mirror and in the photos, my smile no longer look real. it's been hiding too much misery that sometimes no longer aware what will the world be like..without me. dun worry im not thinking suicidal or anything...it's just that, my life seems to be full of misery lately. at least that's how i see them.

i felt that i am so lucky to receive so much love from people around. they care about me and all, but am i right enough to accept them all? i mean, i can't like response to all of these all. but i dunno. i keep saying to myself, that i receive a lot of love but i dunno how to love.

GOSH, i wish i can be happy like forever. got myself a phrase from somewhere.

simple guidelines for happiness
1. Free your heart from hate. (obviously, it's hard for me to do this)
2. Free your mind from worry. (same with this)
3. Live simple. (how can i live simple, when life seems so complicated)
4. Give more. (i dunno how to love, how can i give more)
5. Expect less. (too much expections-lead my life to misery)

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mr. sleepyhead:
wow
hahaha
u are officially a pig
like me
: D
we of of the same species

hahaha...OMG, he's so cute n funny. just keep me laughin. kinda find his funny picture too in fs that keep me laughing again. he was posing with peace sign and a hoodie.lol. hip hop style. well, he's away now, studying econ he told me.

on the other hand, papi said, mr gamer went to retreat. and plus he had been sleeping voer at his house. and papi is so bad that he didnt went online for me. haiz. oh well. btw, my breakouts r healing. yay. so happy

while i was making my notes, i kinda become a beauty consultant for my dearest friends. lol. kinda cute though. i know makeup n can put it on other ppl other than myself.
btw. found this cute sneakers. just wanna it! lol

tell me wad u think. lol. btw, muffin been really genit lately. playing wiht mom's makeup. it's ok, muff, it's part of grown up. btw. if i hv a bf, wish he would like him. well i know it's only a dream.
him as in Alex oppa from clazziquai.

currently listening: Jatuh Cinta-Dygta

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happy but sad at the same time

Saturday, April 19, 2008 11:42 PM

OK, let me tell you. now, i'm feeling HAPPY AND WANTING TO CRY AT THE SAME TIME.

i'm happy because of 2 things. and extremly sad n stress out cuz of other things. which ones do u wanna know first?

ok. let me tell u the bad stuffs.
i hvnt done with my finance. argh! it's killing me, man! me DIE! ok...
and another problem is there's soemthing wrong with my BoFa account that i need to move all my money to credit union. and my dad keep scolding me for not listening to what he said. ok. I'm not a multi-task person. i cannot, do my midterms, chat n on the phone, plus check bank at the same time. i'm not a robot. feeling stressed out right now. i think this is why i got breakout. HELP!
LET ME OUT OF THIS CRAZY WORLD

ok...2 good things. Mr gamer has a facebook and he was the one who added me. ok. seems LAME but enough to keep me happy. and today, my horoscope tell me that i would be meeting my crush since we hvnt spoke a long time. and it actually did happend. Mr Sleepyhead called me on msn and we chat alot. ok, he helped with my finance. and got scolded by him for not listening in class T_T nah..he was just teasing me lar. but happy lor...he kept me company while studying. i thought he was gonna watch NBA playoff. oh well, too bad, he got no cable. but it was so cute of him trying to explain the stuff for me. pity him, it took him a while to get me understand...but he was so nice though....a bit "galak" i must say... lol

ya....maybe i should be positive. tons of stuff to do. im exhausted.

list of things i need to do:

• marketing optional project
• summer class registration(edgewood)
• renew passport
• order ticket to indo
• Fall clases
• edgewood for muffin
• bank stuff
• study for finals

i think i'm gonna die soon. i can no longer take it. if only, someone would gladly help me. haiz....that's like impossible lar. no knight in shinning armour come to rescue me, say! wad to do??

currently listening: Everything just wonderful - lily allen (kinda contradict the situation)

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great discovery

Friday, April 18, 2008 9:35 PM

word of the day: LOL

ok, i dunno why, but i simply couldn't stop smiling and saying the word "LOL" hahahah...ever since my 13 hours of sleep on wed night and 9 hours of sleep last night, i think something in my brain was going crazy. hahaha...

i was supposed to be stressed out for my FINANCE Midterm. but i turned out i found a great discovery. Mr. Gamer finally has a facebook. lol. yay. should i be happy??? hahahha...

i guess, the people who currently read this, kinda figure out who is MR. Gamer. hahaha...can;t believe he add me. lol...so HAPPY...hahaha...

crap!it's 9.39 and i hv tons of chapter to read. DIE DIE DIE...

currently listening: Emo Kid-Jim Robert

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funny day

Wednesday, April 16, 2008 3:14 PM

Today, at math class discussion. it was kinda interesting. there were only 3 students who came. hahaha..funny right. at first, i thought i missed an email or something cuz no one came like 5 mins before. then the TA came. he was just smilling and hahaha...i guess it's funny.

well, kinda bored again today. my marketing prof was hilarious. he was so FUNNY. hahaha describing the video, acting them out since they r not working well.

ok, i kinda decided to upload some other collection of mine. kinda obsessed with them. hahaha...but not all i bought buy myself, mostly r given. argh! i forgot the blue monkey that my ex-roomates, melva n apple gave me for my sweet 17. oh well, it's ok.


Basically, these are both my stuffed animals collections.mostly dolphins of course. and I'm a big fans of shows. expecially, converse...the most comfy shoes ever. well, at least for me

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1 more done, 1 more to go!

Tuesday, April 15, 2008 8:23 PM

OK, here goes. since my friends keep bragggin' to see my JC bag. ok..i finally did it. i took it with my old digital camera, cuz i couldn't be bother to use my SLR. hahaha...

My favourite bag so far,

there's the small mirror that come a long with it

and the part i like the most,

the STRAWBERRY.

and so, for kinda fun, i took several other pictures of my bathroom stuffs. if you guyz like to see.

OK, i got my brushes, my eyeshadows, my eyeliners n mascara, my foundations n lipglosses. My skin care products and my hair products. PLus, My favourite collections. My perfume stuffs. I got a number of collection. like Gwen Stephanie - L, Dior addict, Lancome-Hypnose, CK-SUmmer(limited), Juicy COuture, Vera Wang-Princess, Miss Dior Cherie, Lolita Lempicka, Guess silver. i got several others. like Gucci-Envy Me, Body SHop-white Mask, and etc. hahaha..i'm a perfume addict. hmm..kinda of.

currently listening: Klik-Ussy

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keeping everything positive

12:10 AM

ok, pepz. I was a bit down in the afternoon today. But to keep everything positive, i went to church and go through that a walk in africa thinging. it made me feel better. It made me realize, i shouldnt complain too much about my life. I should be thankful cuz i can live like what i am now. after the tour, i decided to go and help one child. His name is Jean Marie Vianney. He's 4 years old this year. and He's from Rwanda. i dunno where it is but, it's probably somewhere in africa. He lived in the HIV community. so i feel that i had the desire to help him. so i did. and wanna make it a habit too. wish me luck people.

p.s. got a math exam tomorrow. hopefully i can do them. peace

Currently listening: Like a child - 김동률 (feat.알렉스)

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God created people unique on their own

Monday, April 14, 2008 8:22 AM

Yesterday, I went to church and heard the preaching..."God loves you unconditionally!" well, at first it was really nice to hear that. then after several thoughts, OMG, i should be thankful for it. Well, you see you may not notice this, but I actually dunno how to love someone. It may look like I care about others but, the thing is Love is not that simple. so therefore, i admit, i dunno how to love others. Well, I got tons of love around me, from my family, my friends but it's just that too much love make me feel ackward, how am i gonna repay them for all of this love?

SOmetime, i got me thinking, i'm alone in this world, whom should i look up to? but the truth is, you're not alone, you got your family, your friends and all the other people that care about you. and when there were no one else around, you still have GOD who loves you unconditionally. Isn't your life just perfect? well, it may not look perfect, but still it's nice to have someone who loves you.

Well, the thing about God creating people unique on their own. I cannot compare myself with other people, like how successful they are in their academic. I just need to be thankful. I am not that smart, but i tried my best to be one. At least, i got other talents that God provide me. I was able to learn different kinds of music instruments. I know several sports, even though i was one lazy girl, and most of all, he allows me some talent arts, that i should be thankful.

Now, I have to start to learn to Love Me. Cuz, as you may not notice, i dunno how to love myself. I dun take care of myself, which causes me to get sick often and all. Let me learn about myself first, then I'll learn to love others as well.

update: finally I kinda lost another 2.6kg after getting sick. well, we'll just hv to see later lar.

Currently Listening: John Nathaniel(utube guy)-Realize

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in the middle of the night

Thursday, April 10, 2008 1:02 AM

"This is 10% luck, 20% skill, 15% concentrated power of will, 5% pleasure, 50% pain and a 100% reason to remember the name..." -quoted from fort minor

had a great conversation with my beloved mommy!hehehe...well, i told her about ignoring the people that i don't like and she told me, it's ok as long as i feel right about it. well, and she told me to quick find a boyfriend to end the problem. blah! hahaha...finding a boyfriend is not easy mom. you should pity your daughter getting love interests from the people that she don't like. then she told me that my standardS are TOO HIGH.hahaha..funny. maybe it is. well, but what can i say, a girl who can do alot of course expect her bf to be able to do tonz of stuff to. hehehe...

but no worries...i can reconsider those standards too. having alot of bad thoughts lately, not really confident about skool and all. but THANK GOD! i was given the best parents in the world. miss them alot. especially after the fight, i'm glad they forgive me cuz they know that i'm still trying to find the real ME and being part of my maturity of being able handle my emotion. well, i'm happy...

but, muff keep bugging me about edgewood stuff. haiz. i'll do them later.

as for my other supporter. My beloved cupcake always there for me when i'm down. I'm so thankful that to have you in my life. you are truly my bestest friend! hehehe..thanks for the support, say, you mean alot to me...miss ya loadz.

2 more midterms coming up. WISH ME LUCK PEPZ!

currently listening: Shake it -Rediscover (this song just make wanna scream, shout and DANCE)

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finally, i realize it

Sunday, April 6, 2008 8:07 PM

i know i've been down. but i got the strenght to move on. Mourning over this wont finish the problem. I jsut have to be strong and face what my problem. I know i'm not perfect and I know i'm not smart as other people. but God has given me the most talents that i could thank of. and as for my mom, I've sorry for what i have done. I shouldn't shout at you and i need to be more mature in my thinking.


When God created you, he knows you where there. and He created you with a purpose that will take you to your life journey to find those talents. He created every human unique on their own and it will be us, human who will need to utilize the talents that God has given you and do something good in your life that will benefit all the people around the world. Because He had created you with a purpose.

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Super down

2:31 PM

again, more of things been bugging me these past days. and I almost break down to tears. I had a completely stupid arguement with my mom and it has affected me the whole day. I can't study. OH GOD! what should I do?

Tell you the truth, I haven't been enjoying my MM time. it's just that the pressure of me pleasing other ppl just bugs me and i simply forgot that the time how MM was my favourite time of FNF as i got to praise GOD. but now, the feeling has changed. the pressure is on and plus people don't find it exciting anymore. Maybe I should quit MM. i mean, i can no longer enjoy doing, why should i bother trying to please other people.

I'm pretty sad right now. and I can't concentrate on my study. OH God, please help...

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pump it!

Saturday, April 5, 2008 8:15 PM

Summer is coming,pepz! and you know what that means. it's diet time!! haha for me lar. ok, i've been gaining a lot of kgs arg! from my dec holz and havt been loosing any kgs yet. so i am so determined to lose weight now, right before i go back for summer so that i can wear all the nice clothes i want. yay! my current goal is now to lose 5 kgs first, then another 5 kgs and another 5 kgs...hahaha..ok wish me luck. i jsut finish this workout video. 50 minutes, but it was DAMN fun. well, better than my yoga exercise. maybe i'll do it everyday for better results. hahaha.

ok, currently, i've lost 0.4kg hahaha..i'm so Happy! also been watching what i eat and eating the food slowly. and it really works...hehehe..i get full faster and get hungry less quickly. but as for my snacks. must reduce them man. been eating all the choco pie n sweets at home! OMG...that's bad.

hahaha..well, ppl wish me luck....

got exam on monday been trying to study but simply couldnt stay focus. -_-

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no manner

Friday, April 4, 2008 10:59 PM

ok, pepz! i think you have to deal more of my rambling for a few more weeks. well, until i got the right solution to control this situation.
OMG! ARGH! WTH man...haiz. why do you need to do that? can you really read my face? you're freaking me out. haiz. ok, i talked to papi already, I really need to control my temper. I know i'm a very sensitive and moodie person. When i'm in a bad mood, you better not mess around with me, cuz you know you'll something unpleasant.
OK, another person. COME ON MAN! YOU KNOW ANY MANNER?!? can't you see what i'm doing just now? why do u need to go and cut of the conversation. it's not right! it's not polite. I don't care what people say about me. whether it's bad or it's good. any rumour or watsoever. cause i know i'm just expressing my mind.
I know what you are trying to do. we know what you want. you're scared of being left alone and so now you come and get near to others. DO as you like, do as you please, cause I don't care what you anymore, we got no more business.

rambling rambling rambling..i know i'm so immature to think like this. well, what can i do? you did that the first place.

gonna be very busy over the upcoming weeks. and kinda lazy to do outside things as well. and as for someone who has no manner, you GET OUT OF MY LIFE!


currently listening: Mocca -It's over now (this song is my answer to the person who creep me out)

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